Hey there guys! Its been such a long while... but between school, family, social life and the like I've hardly had much of a break! However now that I have a slight breather I can let y'all know what's going on in my life right now...

First and foremost, school is ramping up like it never has before! I mean I knew that assignments and papers and the like were going to be coming up and the expectations of papers in my new major (Family and Children's Ministry) were going to start getting a bit tough but dang! I REALLY wasn't expecting this... However I know God has led me in this direction for whatever reason and so I'm gritting my teeth and pushing through, giving my all and hoping I survive in the end... @.@; Also, I had to have my adviser interview for the department to get to know me and look over my application of being accepted into the department. Please pray that all goes well with that. Also, I'm trying my hardest to get into summer school and play "catch up" this summer with some of my courses. Pray that all goes well with that (especially financially).



Well when it comes to family and friends and significant others, all is going pretty well. Rich and I are still dating (it'll be almost 4 or 5 months now) and are enjoying it tremendously! We've learned ALOT about ourselves and about God in all this! Such a blessing to be in each others' lives the way we are especially when it comes to helping one another out whatever that may be (like how he helps me out with school and understanding ministry or how I help him with his youth ministry from time to time and continue encouraging him however he may need it). My family is still working hard and doing well... my dad is still looking for a job and working on his Master of Divinity degree while my mom is still working as a first grade teacher and she just got done with her masters degree and received her diploma the other day! I can't wait to go to her graduation ceremony... So proud of her... :D My sister is still singing and writing music as always and working hard! Like I said, all is going pretty well... :)



Now when it comes to God and my walk with him right now, let's just say its focusing ALOT on trust. After pursuing God in this sense for so long, now it feels like God is asking me and encouraging me to trust him and others in far deeper levels than I ever had before and I'm not going to lie: it terrifies the ever living snot out of me! I know this may sound weird and even contradictory to how I usually sound but bear with me. Most of my life, anything and everything good I've strive after (whether that was dreams, guys, careers, etc) was either denied to me or it was given to me for a short time and then taken from me ...- either way, some serious wounds came about as a result making it hard to trust God and others and causing me to result to investing very little in personal relationships with others cause, "Hey! What does it matter? I won't be here long anyway...". In a sense you could say, my biggest insecurity is that God denies me some of the great things in life for whatever reason He seems fit. Now I know in my heart of hearts that God is a faithful and loving God and that he grants us the desires of our hearts in one way or another. However, me being a very logical and analytical person, I can't help but deduce God being like this because of the experiences I have had in my life.
During this time, I'm also going through Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurity" book (via podcasts) and that has definitely been doing a number on me. Not only am I addressing my own self made insecurities but insecurities I've developed due to others or even some of the things God has taken me through and that I've taken away from those experiences. Right now I just ask y'all to pray for me in all of this... I know that once I start really battling this and conquering it so many things are going to start opening for me when it comes to life and understanding and walking with God.

Well that's it for now... I hope this wasn't too much or even too little for you! Take care and hope to hear/see y'all soon! Later days!

~Jeanne;)