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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

The Month of June and Resting Even Though I Don't Want To



Hey guys! Sorry again for it being a while since I last posted but its been quite an interesting kind of month and definitely one that has taken quite a toll on me...

First of all, Rich and I celebrated our 6 month anniversary! It was so awesome... he took me out to eat and then surprised me by taking me to a drive in movie place for the very first time! It was so cool... we saw X-Men: First Class and since the movie was set in the 60s and all, it worked so well with the drive in theater. We had a blast!
After that week, things kinda started going downhill for me for a bit. For a few different reasons, that old part of me that is so use to moving around and not having a place to call home start rising up in me again and was becoming kinda restless and wanting to get out of this place. I don't know where it came from but it was definitely something I knew that I needed to handle and understand quickly. After talking to a few people and really trying to see what was going on, I think I understand what it was now: being so use to not staying in a place for so long, the habit of packing and moving was starting to get at me. I'm one of those people that in order for me to feel like I'm accomplishing something in life I need some kind of tangible evidence; for whatever reason, I think I translated moving from place to place as evidence me moving on and through life. But that's a problem... because that is not what I want in life. I truly want a place to call home and settle in a place for a time and grow deeper into the community. So now apparently there is this desire to find where I belong - my home - and the habit of always being on the move and not calling any place mine. There may be some of you out there that actually understand what I'm going through; no worries though... this heart's desire I'm starting to slowly see and realize is far stronger than the habit of always being on the move.



Well for some of you, y'all knew I got sick but for those of you who don't, I got terribly sick about a week and a half ago with a nasty sinus infection that had begin to turn into pneumonia. Not only was this very rare but completely inconvenient (well at least I think it was) because the next session for summer school was starting and I was wanting to attend to at least get a couple of classes out of the way. Not only was I pretty much bed ridden for the next week or so but I also was unable to attend any classes; so I withdrew from the summer session. I can not tell you how absolutely irritated I was by all this! First of all, I very rarely get sick (like it happens once or twice a year and generally I get over it in a couple of days - yeah I have one of those insanely strong immune systems) but for it to happen at just that time and for it to last that long made it impossible to get out of bed, let alone attend any kind of class. However in a matter of one day, I had 4 different people tell me the exact same thing (what makes it even more interesting is that 3 of these 4 people I don't even really know): "It seems for right now you just need to rest and take a break from school for a while..." Okay, I'm not one of those people that can NATURALLY take it easy; I mean even now I'm reading books and articles on marriage (like Dr. Emerson Eggrich's Love and Respect book - amazing book by the way), God's design for it (awesome articles on Focus on the Family's website on this topic)and its importance in the structure of family and community not because I'm bored but because this is what I'm studying in school to get a degree in. I have to do something! If I don't, I feel like a slob or something. However, I've begun to realize that resting is a good thing and is even something that God expects us to do (like "taking" a Sabbath I guess). For me, I'm just not use to resting. Slowly but surely God is showing me that resting and waiting is a good thing and that during this time I can use it to better myself in my walk with him and to do some reading and studying at my own leisurely pace in things that I've always wanted to dig deeper into.
In all honesty though, I really can't wait till I'm done with school... this stress and pressure crap is for the birds. Unfortunately though I still have two years left... *>.<*

Any ways, that's it for now! Hope all is going well for y'all and hope to see ya soon! Happy early 4th of July and later days!

~Jeanne :)

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Hey there! Jeanne here! In case you're wondering, I'm 26 years old in college right now studying History and later to teach it. I love meeting new people and getting to know more about others... especially if I can help them out!!

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