Hope all is well for everyone! This past week has been a bit of a long one for me as well as really starting to dig into my classes and trying to keep up with them and get projects started. Of course, only God knows if I'll succeed... @.@;

As I posted last week, I had come to a decision to look into and apply for Toccoa Falls College. After a week of deciding this I began the process of looking into the school and getting ready to apply for it. But for some reason, today I was hit with the realization, thanks to my dad, that maybe a little bit of this decision might have to do with the fact that I haven't really been digging into the word. Understandably so, I was a little upset/hurt (Okay I was pissed... >.<*). I've thought that I had been digging into God's word and doing my devotionals like I had always done. But as I looked back on them, it was true... my spiritual walk hasn't only been endangered by the things and people I lack here but that I had become somewhat half-hearted in my attempts to seek God when I do.

But why?! Why have I become this way? Has it just become a routine and I haven't valued that time like I once did or something else? Maybe because of what I lack here, I've become dishearten in my pursuit. Either way, with all of this coming into play, I'm really rethinking about transferring now...

Please pray that I may, once again, gain clarity on the matter, that I may regain my "internal" compass again and pray that nobody and nothing becomes my primary reason on whether I stay or go; that it be totally God and his will in the matter... I need this so bad right now guys... Thanks!

~Jeanne :*(